That was my yesterday....
YESTERDAY
WAS PLAIN AWFUL!
Sooooo frustrated!!
But, I’ll start with the good part.
The letter we had been waiting for that gave us permission to adopt our daughter was finally scheduled to come in the mail!! Woohoo! We had been tracking from across the country....from desk to desk an office in the Chinese government....through email an updates we made our way through the different steps....until it culminated with us following it through a fed ex tracking number to our doorstep! Yay!
TODAY was THE day! Onto the next step...one step closer to having our little one home safe and in our arms! :) :) :) We had our approval – FINALLY! Months of paperwork culminate in this step! Which is really just getting a fed-ex delivery…but we were pumped! We were so excited!
Now....you know this is coming....
The bad part....
The part that made my whole family cry...and gave me the sympathy of my family and my "family" of online adoptive parents that have been there and done that....The part that I can't figure out why or how it happened....
This. Happened.
Yep. Our Bella for some reason decided to “play” with our
paperwork. Ugh. I felt like I had been punched in the stomach. Now, I’m sure
many of you are thinking “just have them print another paper….is it REALLY that
big of a deal?” To this question, I (my adoptive mommy friends will back me on
this one) answer a very firm YES! NOTHING in the adoption paperwork adventure is
that easy! We only waited 18 days for this paper…but it was a fluke! MANY MANY
families wait 60-90 days for their approval, and some have waited over 100
days! (not a club I’d want to be in, for sure!)
The weird thing about this is we have things delivered ALL
THE TIME! Since my hubby’s office is at home, he is ALWAYS getting some type of
pamphlet or new form or education handouts (nothing too exciting – bummer!)
sent to the house. I’m talking 1-3 packages EVERY DAY! Never…not once in the
year we’ve had Bella has she EVER chewed a package. NOT ONCE! Annnnd….there were other packages delivered that day. She
only got the one with our one page, more precious than gold, approval from the
Chinese government….
HOW CRAZY IS THAT?!?
So this paperwork “delay” caused by our dog could cost us
several months. We are praying it doesn’t. We are PRAYING our agency is right
and it will only be a couple weeks while we wait for approval from this side of
the ocean, and then our re-printed form will magically show up RIGHT ON TIME.
I’m trying to remember this. …
It’s just paperwork….and it’s probably just a couple weeks
to a month. What’s the big deal?
The big deal is my baby is waiting….in a scary place…with no
hugs….and nobody to love her and hold her. I couldn’t even imagine, even for a
SECOND, dropping my girls off at a place where I knew they would be
alone and scared and stressed and hungry and dirty and not wanted or loved. I barely even let them participate in ANYTHING that I don't know the person EXTREMELY well....that they can't get ahold of me immediately if they need me or aren't having fun or feel scared....
And
that’s what I’m imagining right now. That my girl is there. In a scary place. Where there are too many needs and not enough hands. Where supplies are scarce and needs are great. In a place that I wouldn't leave her....because it's not a great place to be. In a place where she needs me...
And
the paperwork I need to go get her is shredded
on my kitchen table…..
But soon….very soon….…I will be laughing about the stupid
dog and the stupid paperwork and all the delays and waiting…..I will be rocking
you in my living room singing you this song…
Together at last!
Together for ever!
We're tying a knot,
They never can sever!
I don't need sunshine now
To turn my skies TO blue --
I don't need anything but you!
You've wrapped me around
That cute little finger.
You've made life a song .....
You've made me the singer!
And what's the bathtub tune
You always "Bu-Bu-Boo?"
Bu-Bu-Bu
Anything but you
Yesterday was plain awful
You can say that again!
Yesterday was plain awful1!
But that's-
Not now-
That's then!
I'm poor as a mouse,
I'm richer than Midas.
But nothing on earth
Could ever divide us!
And if tomorrow, I
'm an apple seller, too--
I don't need anything but you!
And, if you wanna hear the original version of the song….
I can sing it by heart, possibly do the dance still, and (gasp!)
even had the infamous Annie haircut and PERM in the fourth grade….Thanks MOM! J
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