I got a love note last week. It couldn't have come at a better time.
I'm pretty sure that nothing else in the world could have made me feel more special or cared for or loved than receiving that love note on that day at that exact moment.
It was PERFECT TIMING!
But my love note was not written down, and it was not spoken. It is not something I can show you....
My love note was a gift. A gift of time. A gift from God.
You may think it is a coincidence. You make think saying it is a "gift from God" is a stretch....and you are welcome to your opinion.
But I know who the gift came from. I know that when I talk to God and tell Him my problems, that He listens. And that He loves me. And that He cares. And that sometimes, not all the time, but sometimes, He sends me a message.
And this time, the message was a little love note in the form of time.
Time to go to my daughter's birthday party that was scheduled the only time it was available, which was also during my college class.
Time to pack & organize my house during an unexpected "winter break."
Time to get some very important stuff done before baby girl comes HOME.
You see, time was something I couldn't get enough of this winter. I've been SOOO busy! With the adoption, and all the paperwork, my usual commitments of Girl Scouts & at church, working full time, completing my RESA (4 year "assignment" needed to complete teacher licensure), and taking 2 college classes on the weekend was about to do me in....I was wondering how on earth I was going to get it all done, and cried the whole way to my college class because I was going to miss Kara Jo's birthday party at the ice skating rink. I was HATING the idea that I would miss it. She was ok with it...Mommy was not.
When I got to class, the professor said he was letting us out at noon. NOON!!! I literally squealed and jumped up and said I am going to hug you!" (to which he replied, "no you aren't! I have to keep an appropriate teacher-student distance!" LOL- I should've suggested a "side-hug!")
Just enough time for me to get !!! That is a LOVE NOTE!
In three years of class, having class 1-3 times/month, he has NEVER let us out that early....
It was a "love note" from God! Telling me He cares. Telling me it will be ok. Telling me even though I have a HUGE list of things to get done, that it WILL all get done. That He is in control. That HE hears me....
So I am trying to turn to Him when I feel anxious, and overwhelmed, and excited, and like I can't stand another second to pass that everyone acts like life is normal when my life is crazy upside down waiting for my baby to be home!
(I digress - but have you ever had a life changing moment, like a birth or a death, that you walk through your everyday life and see people scurrying around, worrying about unimportant things when your life is topsy turvy crazy??? I'm feeling a little like that.)
Like my life is in slow motion....
I am overwhelmed and yet can't get anything done because I picture Kensley waiting on me....watching for me....scared, hurt, or lonely...needing me, and me far, far away...
Eight more days, baby girl. Eight. More. Days!!!
I truly can't believe it. It is happening!!
And I couldn't be more thankful. Thankful to God that I get to be a part of this sweet little girl's life. I'm just so grateful.
Eight days till I leave to go get her. And 13 days till I hold her in my arms.....what a beautiful moment that will be....I just can't wait.....
Please pray I can get some sleep between now and then! My mind is going 100 mph, and it is hard to relax.
But SOON I will be there!! So soon it's hard to concentrate on much else....except her cute face !
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